Alex Kang’s Essay
I have been in church all my life and never really complained about it. I made many great friends through church and I was fortunate enough to have pastors who were great mentors and leaders who tried enthusiastically to lead me to Christ. Albeit, with not much success. It wasn’t until just this last year in 2014 when I learned about the true, unconditional love of God.
I had met an amazing girl at church who I fell in love with. She was steering me towards God in a way no one has ever done before; with Christ-like personalities- kindness, understanding, compassion, tenderness and warmth. It wasn’t until March of 2014 where I also saw the cruelty and mysteriousness of God. I had found out that my girlfriend of over a year had cheated on me because to her, I was “not a man of God. “
I struggled for months with what she said to me and decided to attend church to find the answer. I started reading the bible more when I came across 2 Timothy 1:10
But it has now been revealed through the appearing of our Savior, Christ Jesus, who has destroyed death and has brought life and immortality to light through the gospel. -2 Timothy 1:10
It was then that I realized what I had gone through was for a purpose; to be broken down to a meaningless pulp, so that I may recognize the only thing that was left in my heart was to accept God’s unconditional love for me. He was there for me when I wasn’t a man of God but had faith that I would one day be whom I was meant to be and didn’t leave me for any reason. 2 Corinthians 5:17-21 to me, reminds me of when I was broken and left in the darkest valley of my life. However, I heard the voice of God who gave me the courage to keep walking and trust in his message of reconciliation. It will always remind me of my own baptism where I was able to leave the old me behind in that water and come out a new person not because of what I decided in my own heart, or what I had done in this world, but because of what Jesus did for me.
As an ambassador for Christ, I have learned to never squelch my beliefs. I have learned that sharing my faith is not always easy, but it is also not an option. As an ambassador for Christ I have taken the opportunity to speak to any and all that wants to know the story of my downfall and how Christ picked me up and brought me back into the light. Many of my friends and colleagues are not Christians. I believe it is because they are all up to their necks in the New York City mentality of being in the hustle and bustle of trying to “make it” that they believe they do not have time for a relationship with Christ. I take pride in being the lone warrior for Christ. I can be found at many of the same places my non-believer friends frequent, but I take pride in never losing control of myself and letting it be known that on a Saturday night, I may be out with my friends, but everyone knows that Sunday morning, I will be awake early in the morning and serving on the venue control team and attending church. It’s gotten to the point where my friends know that between the hours of 11am-4:30pm I am at church and they will not contact me during those hours. I believe that by simply being present and permeating the love of Christ into my group of peers, they will one day be comfortable enough to approach me, or even accept my invite to attend church with me to hear the word of God.
Utilizing my large social media following, I have dedicated much of my web-real-estate to posting about my faith and my walk with Christ. I have received much criticism for it, but I have received more words of praise and affirmation for sharing my story. I started off slow; posting pictures of myself getting ready for church, then pictures of the band playing, then moving on to adding scripture as the copy to many of my posts. I have received countless messages from people all over the world thanking me for posting a simple scripture. Many saying that they were in a place where they felt lost for days, or even weeks, but for some reason, reading my post helped them feel more hopeful. I’ve received many messages from doubters and non-Christians asking questions about what it means to be a Christian. I have tried my best to answer the questions but often come across an obstacle or question I cannot answer. That is when I have to praise God for placing me in such a great church. In a connect group with a great group of God-seeking men who are always there to guide me when I am lost. I value my brothers more and more because when I don’t have the answers or when I feel lost, not only do I have the scripture, but I have the comfort of speaking to any of my brothers whose only motivation is to guide me closer to God.
2 Cointhians 5:17-21 is about renewal. Finally understanding that no matter what troubles, or sorrows fill your heart today, that we should praise God like he’s already blessed us to our potential. That God was reconciling the world to himself in Christ. That the old has gone, and the new is here! To learn to trust Jesus and walk into the small storms of today because he is sparing us from the big storm of tomorrow; that is the kind of God we serve.